There’s been quite a large happening of events in just the last six months of my life. Long story short:

-I fell in love (over the internet mind you)

-Flew miles away on an airplane to visit thy lover.

-Wasn’t murdered. Wasn’t kidnapped. Fell deeply in love.

-Decided to uproot my life, and move with him far away from everything that I know.

-& now I’m here in Georgia, miles away from Louisiana, kind of feeling super lonely just like I was in Louisiana.

Granted, I realize now that the turbulence I was trying to run away from  in my home life was internal and it has followed me here. It’s a matter of thought. I get really down on myself about me entirely or a situation and I’ve noticed that it ruins my entire day or experience that could have otherwise been a positive/happy one. So naturally I started thinking of when I was the happiest in my life and I stumbled upon this blog I made. It was when I was practicing positive thought the most. I rarely ever remember having a down moment, and when I did it was quickly resolved with a positive thought, memory or feeling… even something as simple as smiling which is scientifically proven to help, if even just a little, with depression, etc. 

So here I am to reclaim this blog and this life practice from hence forward. 

Just reading a psychology book “The Emotional Mind” & sipping on some green tea. Reminiscing on a few things & how much things have changed,  how much I have changed in just a few months. My fire for life & self betterment is doubling these days & I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am taking better care of myself. I must never lose sight of that fact. #change #selfbetterment  #weightlossjourney #weight I started off with my highest weight weighing 270 pounds in December and now I weigh 227.   I’m going to do flips whenever I get out of the 200’s! Which should be anytime now.

Just reading a psychology book “The Emotional Mind” & sipping on some green tea. Reminiscing on a few things & how much things have changed, how much I have changed in just a few months. My fire for life & self betterment is doubling these days & I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am taking better care of myself. I must never lose sight of that fact. #change #selfbetterment #weightlossjourney #weight I started off with my highest weight weighing 270 pounds in December and now I weigh 227. I’m going to do flips whenever I get out of the 200’s! Which should be anytime now.

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ladyknucklesinshape:

So let’s talk about something I have greatly noticed in the fitblr (which includes all areas of fitness) community is there is NOT a lot of pictures or gifs or whatever of girls (and guys) GOING THROUGH their fitness journey, or in other words, I don’t see fat people working out. 

We always reblog pics of skinny ass girls or fit ass girls working out and doing shit but you NEVER really see a lot of muscular and fat girls doing shit. Like How do you think a LOT of these skinny/fit ass people started out? Like me. FAT AS FUCK, titties flying all over the place, looking like a big ugly ass land whale moving about, could use my damn fat as a WMD if I really wanted to. lol

Hey fitblr, stop fucking lying to yourself by ONLY rebloging these skinny/fit as fitspo ass pictures and JOIN ME!! Let’s show people what fitblr REALLY is about. Oh and I thought I would color up the dashboard too. Tired of seeing skinny ass, fit ass white girls (and guys) working out like white people the only ones who work out. NOPE. I want all of my Women and Men of color to show up and show out as well. 

If I can get my fat ass up and have fun with my friends working out (or working out alone) I know you guys can try to work out and have fun too. Even if you fail. Keep doing it. I managed to lose 30 pounds…not doing much….but I am at least determined to do better this time around. 

Also, kindly join this movement that I am trying to create. Follow me and tag your personal fat person fitness pics as #lkfatfitness and I would LOVE to reblog and show how diverse this place really is! I don’t care what your fitness is, lifters and yogi are welcome as well. 

And lastly, help me spread the word! And you can check out more of my personal pics here

Okay, so this is awesome!