Just reading a psychology book “The Emotional Mind” & sipping on some green tea. Reminiscing on a few things & how much things have changed,  how much I have changed in just a few months. My fire for life & self betterment is doubling these days & I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am taking better care of myself. I must never lose sight of that fact. #change #selfbetterment  #weightlossjourney #weight I started off with my highest weight weighing 270 pounds in December and now I weigh 227.   I’m going to do flips whenever I get out of the 200’s! Which should be anytime now.

Just reading a psychology book “The Emotional Mind” & sipping on some green tea. Reminiscing on a few things & how much things have changed, how much I have changed in just a few months. My fire for life & self betterment is doubling these days & I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am taking better care of myself. I must never lose sight of that fact. #change #selfbetterment #weightlossjourney #weight I started off with my highest weight weighing 270 pounds in December and now I weigh 227. I’m going to do flips whenever I get out of the 200’s! Which should be anytime now.

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So let’s talk about something I have greatly noticed in the fitblr (which includes all areas of fitness) community is there is NOT a lot of pictures or gifs or whatever of girls (and guys) GOING THROUGH their fitness journey, or in other words, I don’t see fat people working out. 

We always reblog pics of skinny ass girls or fit ass girls working out and doing shit but you NEVER really see a lot of muscular and fat girls doing shit. Like How do you think a LOT of these skinny/fit ass people started out? Like me. FAT AS FUCK, titties flying all over the place, looking like a big ugly ass land whale moving about, could use my damn fat as a WMD if I really wanted to. lol

Hey fitblr, stop fucking lying to yourself by ONLY rebloging these skinny/fit as fitspo ass pictures and JOIN ME!! Let’s show people what fitblr REALLY is about. Oh and I thought I would color up the dashboard too. Tired of seeing skinny ass, fit ass white girls (and guys) working out like white people the only ones who work out. NOPE. I want all of my Women and Men of color to show up and show out as well. 

If I can get my fat ass up and have fun with my friends working out (or working out alone) I know you guys can try to work out and have fun too. Even if you fail. Keep doing it. I managed to lose 30 pounds…not doing much….but I am at least determined to do better this time around. 

Also, kindly join this movement that I am trying to create. Follow me and tag your personal fat person fitness pics as #lkfatfitness and I would LOVE to reblog and show how diverse this place really is! I don’t care what your fitness is, lifters and yogi are welcome as well. 

And lastly, help me spread the word! And you can check out more of my personal pics here

Okay, so this is awesome!

Right now I’m trying to find a balance in my life, but as hard as it is to admit this, it’s not going so well. Trying to find a job right now is like trying to find a needle in the hay stack. My health is doing great though. I’m almost down to 230. The only thing is now though I have no transportation whatsoever so I am STUCK in this house until November & it feels awful. I’m just going to have to suck it up and be the fat girl riding her bike through the town. I will get through this.

Right now I’m trying to find a balance in my life, but as hard as it is to admit this, it’s not going so well. Trying to find a job right now is like trying to find a needle in the hay stack. My health is doing great though. I’m almost down to 230. The only thing is now though I have no transportation whatsoever so I am STUCK in this house until November & it feels awful. I’m just going to have to suck it up and be the fat girl riding her bike through the town. I will get through this.

You’re Just a Dreamer

Who do you think you are, Miss? Your old way of eating has been handed down to you from intelligent people with education degrees, raising children, people with dedication & hard working hearts… people who have survived healthily on the food that you now reject like a spoiled princess from a new generation. They were skinny while eating this food, the same amount, the same way, so why can’t you be? There must be something wrong with you. You must be disease ridden person. A child who has not yet cut off her baby hair. A child who dreams a thousand day dreams in the night while the rest of us are sleeping. So who are you? Tall, awkward female with childish hopes & unrealistic dreams.

So you want to be a doctor of the mind? Ha. You are twenty-four! A high school drop out! You didn’t fit in there, gawky girl, what makes you think you’ll fit in at college? Your brother is perfect. He is the one that deserves to be in college. He is the one who fits in, not you, you odd ball. You will never make it.

So again we ask, who do you think you are? To step out of the box, the hand that was given to you, and do something for yourself? Who are you to even try? You should follow. Not lead. You’re not brave enough, to lead, you’re not beautiful enough. You’re too strange. Too shy. Too emotional. You can’t wear a strong mask like the rest of them. It’s not in your DNA. You will always be an open book, a vulnerable girl who feels too many feelings for places/things/people/works of art… they don’t care. You might as well be a ghost.  A ghost girl being carried away by the wind, time being your master.

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Insecurities will always whisper in my brain,
But I will never let them sink in my heart.
I will always dream a dream bigger than me,
I will never again be swept away by the dark.